One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles
I woke up with a pounding headache and groaned into my pillow. I felt like complete and utter crap and last night’s events did nothing to make me feel better. I groaned again and buried myself under the soft fluffy covers.
“If you groan any louder I’m going to get complaints from the neighbours” A voice chuckled from above me.
I nearly jumped out of my skin and rolled over quickly to see Niall standing beside the bed with a tray in his hands. I growled lowly at him as I put a hand over my racing heart.
“Are you trying to give me a heartache?!” I shrieked
Niall snorted and said “I’m sorry you’re so unobservant that you didn’t hear my LOUD footsteps.”
“Hey I’m plenty observant thank you very much!” I stated.
Niall gave me a ‘get real’ look which I chose to ignore.
I pulled myself up and rested my back against the headboard and Niall handed me the tray he was handing.
“Niall…” I trailed of softly when I saw what he had done.
There in front of me on the tray was a plate full of Chocolate chip pancakes and you could see the chocolate chips sort of formed a smiley face, with strawberries and chocolate sauce on top.
I felt my eyes tear up and Niall looked at me panicky, “Shit sorry Bianca I didn’t mean to make you cry” He said trying to take the tray away from me but I held onto it tightly and shook my head.
My throat had tightened and I was swallowing loudly trying to speak but my voice came out as a whisper as I said “Thank you”
Niall relaxed and I saw him grin at me, “You like it?” He asked.
I shook my head and his face fell before I could whisper “I love it”
Niall grinned hugely and sat down next to me on the bed while I ate quickly, I was starving since I hadn’t eaten properly in days. I saw Niall frowning at me from the corner of my eye but I didn’t look up as I was busy stuffing my face. Normally I wouldn’t let myself eat like that but since I hadn’t eaten properly in days I allowed myself this small treat.
“Bianca you look like you haven’t eaten in days” Niall said jokingly but I could hear the underlining tone in his words.
I shrugged innocently while Niall glared at me.
“Seriously Bianca?” Niall demanded to know.
I ignored him and rubbed my now full tummy. “That was great Niall!” I said enthusiastically.
“I’m glad you like it but don’t think I’m going to forget about this” He said referring to me not eating for days.
I rolled my eyes but nodded at him flashing him a smile.
He smiled back sincerely and jumped out of bed and said “Let’s go!”
“Where?” I asked looking at him confused.
“Just out” He said vaguely.
This time I frowned at him suspiciously but he raised his hands in surrender, “I haven’t seen you in ages and there’s not much to do here” He said
I felt guilty when he said that and I know he could see it on my face.
“Bianca I didn’t mean to make you feel guilty” he said quickly.
I waved him off and got out of bed and stretched my stiff limbs.
“I’ll just hop in the shower then we’ll leave?” I asked him
He quickly nodded and said excitedly “I’m going to be in the lounge then; I want to see how Manchester did last night!”
I chuckled at his excitement and said “Okay off you go” like I was dismissing a little kid.
He practically ran to the room and not a second later I heard the TV being turned on. I chuckled at how quick he was while I grabbed some spare clothes I had left over here.
I had a long hot shower and changed into some light blue jeans and a black singlet. I looked out the window in Niall’s room and saw the weather was taking a turn for the worse so I went to his closet and looked for a jumper to borrow.
I found a comfy looking grey hoodie which I put on and looked in the mirror. The hoodie was a bit a big for me but it looked fine and it smelt so good, so I put my chucks on and brushed my hair and left it out to dry naturally.
When I stepped into the lounge Niall was cursing under his breath at the TV and I let out a small laugh seeing his expression, he always got so worked up about sports it was adorable! Niall glared at me playfully while I tried not to burst into a fit of giggles.
“So I take it they’re not doing too well?” I asked innocently
Niall groaned and switched the TV off and said “Their playing like utter rubbish at the moment!”
I chuckled at how frustrated he sounded and followed him out of the apartment and down to his car while he continued to talk about soccer.
I must have been daydreaming because before I knew it we were in the car cruising on the highway.
I turned to face Niall who was humming a Justin Bieber song and asked him “So where are we going?”
“You’ll see” he replied.
I sighed but didn’t argue. Instead I let my thoughts drift to Zayn and felt my heart pang at the thought of him.
I miss him I thought miserably. I just want everything to go back to normal.
When Niall turned into an all too familiar street I turned to glare at him.
“Why are we going down this street Niall?!” I demanded.
“I don’t know what you mean” Niall said.
I narrowed my eyes at him. “Zayns apartment is on this street” I said.
“Is it?” Niall asked innocently.
I reached over and smacked his arm. Hard.
“Ow! Bianca don’t hit the driver!” Niall yelled.
“Well if the driver has suddenly gone insane I think it’s allowed! What are you up to?!” I yelled back.
“You and Zayn need to talk this out okay. Both of you are miserable and just need to sit down and talk about everything.” Niall said seriously.
I felt my heart start to beat faster and my palms automatically started to get sweaty as my eyes widened in panic. “Niall I can’t” I whispered.
Niall glanced at me as he parked the car. “Bee you can do this. It’s Zayn, not some stranger”
I shook my head before he even finished speaking “I can’t Niall! He hates me and I don’t think I can handle him saying that to me” I said my voice wavering.
Niall looked at me incredulously, “Bianca you’re the insane one! That boy doesn’t hate you; in fact it’s the opposite! He loves you”
“How do you know that Niall? Huh? Please tell me?” I argued.
“Because whenever he talks about you he has the biggest smile on his face! Whenever he hears your name his head whips around so fast as if someone said his own name! When he’s with you he’s constantly glancing at you as if he can’t take his eyes off you! When we’re away on tour he’ll scroll through pictures of you! You don’t notice or know these things but I do and I know for a fact that he loves you!” Niall ranted.
I stared at him open mouthed in shock. “I don’t believe you” I told him in disbelief.
“Well whether you do or don’t all I know is that you need to talk to Zayn” Niall said.
He got out of the car and opened my door as I started to protest but he covered my mouth with his hand.
“Bianca if you don’t walk up to Zayns apartment I will physically carry you up there so don’t test me” He said seriously.
I looked at him to see if he was serious and saw his unwavering gaze and decided I’d rather walk then be carried.
I huffed loudly but got out of the car and slammed the door shut.
Niall winced and looked at me in horror and said “What did my baby ever do to you?!”
I tried to stifle the giggle that threatened to escape my lips but failed.
As we walked up to Zayns apartment side by side I kept wiping my palms on my jeans and biting my lip nervously. When we neared Zayns apartment I felt my knees lock into place and saw Niall jerk back into place as he had linked his arm through mine.
“Niall I’m not ready for this. I don’t even know what to say” I whispered
You will be fine” Niall said stressing out each word as he dragged me to Zayns door and knocked before I could convince him this was a bad idea.
I decided to try one last time “Are you sure this is a good idea?” I whispered quickly.
Niall opened his mouth to respond but the door opened and there was Zayn. I felt myself stiffen as I looked him over. His hair was all over the place, he had dark circles under his eyes and he had a bit of stubble going on. My eyes trailed down to see his bare chest before I quickly snapped my eyes back to his as I felt my ears turn red in embarrassment.
Oh god he’s shirtless I thought to myself.
Suddenly Niall shoved me and I stumbled into Zayn who shot out his arms to catch me and in the process pulled me into his chest.
I turned around to glare at Niall trying to ignore Zayns gaze on my face as I felt my embarrassment double.
“Go talk and don’t even come out till all this is sorted.” Niall said finally and walked off leaving me staring at him open mouthed yet again.
Zayn cleared his throat and I turned to face him and realised how close we were and went to step back but his arms stopped me.
Zayn quickly realised and let me go but not before I saw the hurt look on his face as I stepped away from him. Crap now I feel bad.
“So uh do you wanna come in so uh we can talk?” Zayn asked scratching the back of his head nervously.
I bit my lip hesitantly and rocked back on my heels as I debated on what to do.
“Please?” Zayn pleaded, I glanced at his face and saw he was doing those adorable puppy eyes that I could never say no to. I mentally groaned but nodded silently to Zayn.
Zayn relaxed and stepped back so I could enter. I walked in and went straight to the couch and hugged one of the cushions to my chest as I watched Zayn sit down next to me.
It was silent for a while, neither of us saying anything, just looking at each other.
Finally I couldn’t take it anymore and broke the silence.
“You look tired” I said to him.
“I could say the same to you, when’s the last time you had a good night’s sleep?” He asked concern written all over his face.
I shrugged and saw him frown at me before a determined look overtook.
He took a deep breath and said “Bianca I need to get this off my chest and I have a lot to say so please don’t interrupt okay?”
I nodded and clutched the cushion tightly feeling slightly scared about what he was about to say.
He ran a hand through his already messy hair and I was suddenly itching to run my fingers through his hair.
I shook my head to get rid of those thoughts and tried to focus on what he was about to say instead.
“First I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I overreacted about the Nate thing. I was jealous and I was stupid, I just felt like if anyone had a good chance and stealing you away from me it would be him because whenever I’m away from home you guys spend so much time together and I get that he’s your best friend but I thought he liked you but obviously now I know different but anyway I was a jerk about the whole Nate thing, I let jealousy get the best of me and I’m so sorry! All I know now is that I want you back; I want to be able to call you my girlfriend again because I miss you so much and I love you. I love you more than anything in this world, when I’m with you I just feel at home. Like your my home, god I don’t know how to explain this well without sounding like an idiot but you’re always in my thoughts, even at the back of my mind when I’m out performing your always there.”
He grabbed my hand at put it over his heart which I could feel beating incredibly fast under my hand. I tried to swallow the lump that had formed in my throat.
“You can feel how fast it’s beating? It only ever beats like that around you.” Zayn said sincerely staring into my eyes.
I felt my breathing get shallow as I looked back at him. His eyes were pleading with mine and my whole brain was screaming at me to kiss him.
“What about that girl?” I blurted out. My heart aching at the thought of Zayn with her.
“What girl?” Zayn asked looking genuinely confused
“At the club” I replied shortly.
“She was just a family friend who kept pushing herself on me. I swear I was pushing her away and I was about to leave when I saw you and I froze and I didn’t even realise what she was doing” he said honestly.
He was still holding my hand and rubbing soothing circles on my palm with his thumb.
I looked down at my lap and bit my lip as I thought about everything he had said. I felt tears run down my cheeks and tilted my head so my hair fell in front of my face.
“Bianca” Zayn said softly pushing my hair behind my ear and lifting up my chin to meet his gaze.
His grip on my hand tightened when he saw I was crying. “I’m so sorry I hurt you, I promise to protect you, even from myself if it comes to it” He said.
I couldn’t take it anymore. Every part of me was screaming to be near him so I threw my arms around his neck and buried my face into his neck.
I felt Zayn wrap his arms around my waist as he lifted me up on his lap so I was straddling him as he buried his face in my hair.
“I love you” I whispered.
He tightened his grip on me but drew back and I felt a whimper escape my lips. I needed to be close to him now so I tightened my grip on his neck preventing him from pulling back further.
I felt Zayn unwrap his arms from around my waist and reach behind his neck to my hands and pulled them apart so he could pull back to look at my face. He leant in and kissed down my cheek, then he went to the other cheek and let his lips trail down to my jaw and I felt myself shiver involuntarily as I realised he was kissing my tears away. He pulled back and licked his lips before leaning in.
He brought his lips inches away from mine and by now both of us were breathing heavily. “I love you” He whispered his breath washing over me as I trembled with desire.
Then he leant in and his lips finally made contact with mine. I moaned as I wrapped an arm around his neck and with my other hand gripped a fist full of his hair and tugged him even closer to me.
He groaned and bit my lip, crushing my body to his in the process. His hands were everywhere, running down my sides and up my thighs as he trailed his fingers across the skin on my hips igniting my body with heat trails wherever his fingers made contact. I couldn’t get enough of him; it had been too long since I had kissed him. We kissed like this for what felt like hours, furiously running our hands over each other’s bodies while we kissed each other passionately. I knew I was going to faint if I didn’t take a breath soon and I think Zayn felt the same because he reluctantly pulled his lips away from mine and rested his forehead against mine as he looked into my eyes.
“I love you” He whispered.
“I love you too” I whispered back. He smiled widely and leant in pressing his lips firmly against mine. This time the kiss was sweet and just as long.
“I’ll never get tired of hearing you say that.” He said softly.
I smiled back at him, feeling pure blissful happiness.
Zayn suddenly stood up and I squeaked and tightened my grip on him as he put his hands under my bum to support me. I playfully glared at him as he smirked at me “Sorry I’ll warn you next time.” He said
“What makes you think there’s going to be a next time?” I asked playfully raising my eyebrows.
Zayn laughed and I felt a small smile appear on my face as I heard my most favourite sound in the world. His laugh.
Zayn noticed the look on my face and kissed my forehead as he carried me to his room and lowered me on the bed.
“I think we both need to catch up on sleep” He said chucking me boxers and a shirt. I nodded eagerly, I loved cuddling with Zayn, some of the best ever sleeps I’ve had have always happened when I’ve fallen asleep in his arms. I quickly stripped and put on his shirt which came about mid-thigh so I chucked his boxers back at him and hopped into bed.
He groaned as he looked at me lustfully “Really Bee?”
I shrugged innocently trying to keep the smirk of my face.
Zayn dropped his tracks and hopped into bed in only boxers, as he got under the covers with me he wrapped both his arms around me and hooked his leg around mine.
He kissed my forehead, then my eyelids and then my nose and my cheeks, saving my lips for last.
I could feel his stubble rub gently across my neck as he sucked on a sensitive spot on my neck giving me a hickey in the process.
He pulled back breathless and said “we really should sleep now”
I made an incoherent sound as I kissed along his jaw and then let my lips trail down his neck to kiss collarbone. I felt his grip on my waist tighten as my lips brushed over a sensitive spot on his collarbone and latched my lips onto the skin there and gave him a hickey. He let out a low groan and when I was satisfied with the hickey I gave him I pulled back and rested my head on his chest and sighed happily.
“Now we can go to sleep” I replied cheekily.
Zayn let out a chuckle and gave me a quick peck as he ran his hand through my hair and started humming a tune I didn’t realise.
Soon I was drifting off to sleep so I snuggled into Zayn and let the darkness take over but not before feeling Zayns lips press against mine once more.