Hopeless Dreams: Ziall Fanfic!

Chapter 1:

The fans were screaming so loud i couldn’t hear myself think. This. is. insane. I took a deep breath and looked over my shoulder to see Harry full on grinning and i felt the corners of my mouth start to rise. I let my gaze shift across the room to see Liam and Louis bouncing with excitement and a chuckle escaped from my lips. There was small movement from the corner of my eye and my attention shifted to the one and only Niall Horan. I felt my heart pick up speed but brushed it off as excitement from the concert we had just performed. Niall was looking ecstatic and was hugging himself as he bounced lightly on his feet and i could just see the waves of excitement rolling off him. My smile widened as Niall looked at me and suddenly attacked me with a hug. I laughed lightly and wound my arms around his neck and breathed in the scent of Niall and felt myself relax instantly. Niall had his arms wrapped tightly around me and his face was buried in my chest. When he pulled back we just grinned widely at each other. 

“Niall you were amazing! I don’t know how you do it! You hit every note perfectly mate” I said 

Niall started blushing as the blood rushed to his cheeks and the tip of his ears turned pink.

“Shut up man” He said playfully trying to sound gruff. Notice i said trying.

Niall noticed my pathetic attempts at trying to hide my laughter and lightly bumped my should before a serious expression dawned on his face. 

“Zayn seriously those high notes i swear you’re not fucking human” Niall said with a slight irish accent that became noticeable when Niall started swearing. 

Hearing Niall swear sent a slight shiver through me which i held back. I didn’t quite know how to respond and before i could make a fool out of myself Liam came over and threw an arm around Niall and I and said “That was amazing! I can’t believe it’s our last concert for the tour!

“I can’t believe it either! It was incredible man i can’t wait till our next tour!” Niall said excitedly. 

The thing about Niall is when he’s super excited his words tend to mush together making it nearly impossible to understand what he was trying to say in the first place but i was completely used to it by now. Liam on the other hand looked down at Niall with a confused expression and i bit my lip to hold back the laughter that was bubbling up at the back of my throat. 

Niall of course was completely oblivious to Liam’s confused expression and keep on chattering at full speed at i took this time to really look at him. His blonde hair was sticking up in all directions and he was still in his concert clothes, he wore a tight red shirt that showed his biceps off really well and tight beige pants that left a little to the imagination. I was so focused on Niall that it took me awhile to register that Liam was waving his hand in front of my face. 

“Hello? Earth to Zayn?! Where is your head at?” Liam asked

I chuckled nervously, thankful no one could read my thoughts. What was i thinking? Niall is my best friend seriously i need to sleep. Yeah thats it i’ll just sleep off whatever that was. This time i received a light slap on the cheek.

“Hey!” I said accusingly while narrowing my eyes at Liam.

Liam quickly raised his hands up and said “Wasn’t me! I’m innocent i swear!”

“Sorry Zayn you were totally in a zone just then but i’m hungry” Niall said pouting.

I wonder what it would feel like to bite his lower lip… 

Suddenly Niall started snapping his fingers in front of my face and i jumped a little from the sound.

Niall looked at me worriedly “I think you’re sleep walking right now, let’s get you in bed.” He said as he linked his arm through mine and pulled me along to the car we were all gonna ride in on the way back to the hotel. 

I let Niall drag me into the car and not a second later Liam, Harry and Louis joined us. Niall started laughing at something Harry said to him and i could’t help but stare at him when i noticed Liam and Louis looking me curiously i laughed nervously and started talking to them hoping to distract them from what they just saw. 

“I will never get over that initial thrill of performing!” I said to Liam who quickly agreed with me. I was listening to Louis who was telling us about a fan he saw in the crowd when Niall grabbed my hand and interlocked our fingers. I glanced quickly at Niall who was looking at Louis and looking totally engrossed in to story. I noticed off late Niall was a little bit more touchy feely with me.. Could that mean something? 

I shook my head. What the hell am i thinking. He’s my best friend. He could never like me that way, not in a million years. ‘We’re just friends.’ I repeated in my head over and over again. 

”..and then i swear she elbowed the other fan in the face!” Louis exclaimed, everyone started laughing so i joined in even though i only ended up hearing the end of the story. 

When the car finally pulled up outside the hotel i was exhausted to say the least. We all got of the car one by one as Paul and our other body guards quickly surrounded us trying to protect us from the bright flashes of the cameras. I winced as a camera got shoved in my face and the flash went off. Niall grabbed my arm as if he was scared to lose me and i realised the crowd must be getting to him so i wrapped my arm around his shoulder comfortingly and quickly guided him into the hotel. 

Niall let out a deep breath that he had been holding. “Thanks mate” he said gratefully 

I smiled at him and ruffled his soft blonde hair. “Anytime Nialler” I said cheekily.

“Zayn!” Niall complained as he ran his hand through his hair.

I opened my mouth to make a quick comeback but instead i let out a loud yawn. 

By now we were all in the elevator on our way up to our floor. Liam, Harry and Louis were all sharing one room and Niall and I were sharing another room. 

*DING*

We got off the elevator and i gave Louis, Harry and Liam a hug and said goodnight and Niall followed my actions and we all retreated into our rooms.

Niall was pretty quiet and looked deep in thought as i flicked on the lights in our room and made my way towards the closest to grab my boxers. 

“Zayn, I’m gonna use the bathroom first okay?” Niall asked

“Sure sure” i said as i grabbed my boxers. I turned around to see if Niall was still there but he had already gone into the bathroom so i quickly stripped and put my boxers on and sat on the edge of the bed waiting for Niall to be done. 

I started humming quietly to myself and glanced at the clock to see 5 minutes have gone by. I frowned and decided to check on Niall, as i made my way to the bathroom i noticed the door was slightly cracked open and i paused when i heard Niall mumbling. I turned my head and outstretched my ear closed to the door hoping to hear better but i still couldn’t make out any words so i just gave up and called out “Niall?”

I heard something crash to the floor and i walked quickly to the bathroom and pushed the door open slightly to see Niall picking up a deodorant of the floor.

“uh sorry you have me a start and i ended up knocking this over” He said sheepishly 

“Oh sorry i was just wondering if you were done yet?” I asked

Niall seemed to turn a bit red and mumbled that he was done and quickly rushed out of the bathroom. I let out a sigh as i watched him leave. Could things get anymore confusing?

I quickly brushed my teeth and washed my face and made my way back into the bedroom. Niall was lying down in his bed on his phone and his eyes flickered up to meet mine before going back to his phone.

I let out a quiet chuckle as i took in the sight infront of me. I was barely gone for 5 minutes and in the time Niall had managed to get a load of food on his bed. 

“Help yourself” Niall said gesturing towards heap of food on his bed, so i grabbed some chips and a couple of oreos and got into my own bed. 

“Hey Zayn?” Niall asked somewhat nervously

“Yeah?” I said looking at Nialler

“Thanks for helping me get through the crowd before, i thought i was gonna have a panic attack…” He said

“Niall you don’t have to thank me! Seriously i’ll always have your back no matter what. I’ll protect you always, i can’t stand to see you hurt it kills me.” i blurted out. 

Niall looked at me surprised and i bit my lip wondering if i had said too much. 

“You know you’re the best?” Niall stated casually

“I am.” I said smirking at him

A pillow came flying at my face which i caught easily with one hand. 

“Don’t be cocky” Niall grumbled

I laughed at how adorable he looked. A friend could think another friend looked adorable right? 

I lay down and closed my eyes as Niall turned off the lights and also laid down. 

It was quiet for a few moments before I heard a slight rustling of Niall’s sheets. “Night Zayn.” He said

I smiled to myself, glad that the lights were off so Niall wouldn’t see the silly smile on my face. “Goodnight Niall”

A few minutes of silence went by and i could feel myself drifting off the sleep. “Love you Ni” I said my voice laced with sleep.

“Love you too Z” Niall said sleepily and i fell asleep, two metres away from the blue eyed beauty that i couldn’t go a day without talking too. 

My Reaction when Niall enters Landy’s twitcam:

You think Zayn would have learnt how to work the twitcam by now..

Nosh Twitcam:

Niall: I hate screenshots of my face.

Me:

Niall:

Me:

Niall:

Me:

Niall:

Me: *screenshot*

NIALL ANSWERED MY TATTOO QUESTION HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!

One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles, Chapter 20

One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles

Chapter 20:

Bianca’s POV:

It had been a couple of days since the incident at Niall’s apartment and I was currently moping in my room. I could hear hushed voices outside my door and rolled my eyes. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and cringed. I looked like a right mess.

A sigh escaped my lips and I jumped when my room door suddenly burst open. Danielle came storming in and crossed her arms. My mouth hung open in surprise while she looked at me expectantly.

“We’re going out, so go shower and I’m going to help you get ready” She demanded

“But-“ I started to say before she cut me off with a glare.

Danielle could be scary when she wanted to so I obediently headed to the bathroom and showered.

When I came out wrapped in a towel Danielle had set some clothes on the bed which I robotically put on.

It wasn’t till she pushed me into a chair and started doing my hair that I realised I had no idea where we going.

“Danielle where are we going?” I asked quietly.

“We’re going out clubbing with the boys” She said

My breath caught in my throat and my eyes widened with horror. She was going to make me go clubbing while Zayn was there? I would burst into tears the second I saw him!

Confusion flittered across Danielle’s face before she realised what I was thinking. “Zayns not going to be there babe, he’s moping around at home so Liam and Harry are keeping him company while Niall and Louis come clubbing with us”

“He’s moping?” I asked confused.

Danielle sighed and muttered to herself “So damn dense.”

“What?” I said defensively feeling even more confused.

“He’s moping about you silly! He misses you!” She exclaimed.

“Yeah well he’s the one who’s ignoring me.” I muttered to myself.

When Danielle was done curling my hair and doing my makeup she turned me around so I could see myself in the mirror.

A small gasp escaped my lips as I took in my appearance. My dark brown hair was curled to perfection and cascaded down my back; my brown eyes seemed to pop with the eyeliner and mascara Danielle had put on and my lips looked pouty and pink. I almost didn’t recognise myself.

No one will think wow that girl’s been moping in her room crying for three days I thought to myself wryly.

“Do you not like what I did?” Danielle asked nervously and I realised I hadn’t said anything yet.

I spun around and threw my arms around her tightly. “Thank you thank you thank you!” I said grinning.

Danielle laughed and hugged me back tightly.

I was going to have fun tonight; I deserved a night of fun after everything.

I heard my room door open and pulled back to see Nate standing there rather awkwardly.

“Nate” I said surprised.

I saw Danielle look between us, eyebrows furrowed.

“Um, I was wondering if I could talk to you alone for a sec…” He stammered.

Danielle looked at me and raised her eyebrows. I nodded slightly and she sent me a small smile.

“I’ll be waiting downstairs” She said as she walked out of my room, subtly shutting the door behind her.

I looked at Nate expectantly but he didn’t say anything and as the silence dragged on my nerves were escalating.

“Nate I’m really nervous now what’s up?” I finally asked him.

Nate sighed and ran a hand threw his messy hair. He made his way over to my bed and sat down on the edge and patted the spot next to him.

I rolled my eyes but complied.

I bit my lip as I waited for him to say something, anything.

“Okay I don’t know where to start but first I’m sorry about getting in the way of you and Zayn, but more importantly for that night when you were in the accident. I shouldn’t have forced myself on you and I only did it because I was… conflicted about things and I handled it the wrong way and I love you like a sister, I always have but…” He trailed off.

I stared at him speechless but squeezed his hand, encouraging him to go on.

He looked at me nervously and said quietly “You know how my relationship is with my dad, it’s pretty strained and he already hates me so when I realised…. Something about myself I knew it would just anger my dad even more so I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that… I’m… well… you see…” Nate let out a frustrated grunt and pulled at his hair.

“It’s okay you know you can tell me anything” I said softly.

“I’ve just never really said it aloud but here goes nothing” he said muttering.

“I’m gay.” He quickly said.

My eyes widened and my mouth fell open. I snapped my mouth shut when I realised how I must have looked and opened my mouth but I was at a loss of words.

Nate was nervously clicking his fingers and I finally snapped out of it.

“Well I’m glad you told me and about your dad, he doesn’t know what he’s missing out on.”

Nate looked relieved. “Thanks, for not making this a big deal. I haven’t quite come to terms with it.” He said fidgeting slightly. 

I hugged him tightly and said “I’ll be with you every step of the way so it’s fine just take it as it comes”

When I pulled away Nate sent me a heart-warming smile and said “I don’t know what I’d do without you”

I smiled back at him and he said “So you’re looking quite sexy where you off too?”

I chuckled at him before responding, “Danielle’s taking me clubbing with Louis and Niall.”

“Sounds fun…” He said trailing off. He looked conflicted so I nudged him lightly and his eyes snapped up to meet mine.

“What’s on your mind?” I asked him.

“Well do you think I could come? I mean Zayns not going to be there and I could really use a distraction tonight…” He said slowly.

“Of course!” I said grinning at him! I grabbed his head and started dragging him downstairs where Danielle was talking to mum. I let go off his hand when we entered the lounge.

“Danielle is it cool if Nate comes clubbing with us?” I asked. Nate looked embarrassed for some reason, silly boy.

Danielle looked surprise but quickly nodded. “Sure you guys ready to go? Lou and Niall will meet us there” She said.

“Yeah as ready as I’ll ever be” I said.

“Alright let’s go” Danielle said grabbing her purse and keys.

“Bye mom!” I yelled as we left the house and I heard her yell “Be Safe!”

Danielle got into the driver’s seat; I got into the passenger’s side while Nate got into the back.

We drove there with the radio, all of us lost in our own thoughts.

Before I knew it we were outside the club, I shook my head trying to get myself out of the daze I was in.

Nate nudged me and I looked at him quickly, he was frowning down at me.

“What?” I asked innocently

“You were completely out of it then, does that happen a lot?” He asked concern written all over his face.

I forced on a smile and said “No don’t worry I’m fine”

He didn’t look convinced but before he could question me further Danielle returned from talking to the bouncer outside the club.

“Alright let’s go in” She said smiling.

We walked past the line of people and slipped inside. I looked around and it seemed like there were hundreds of sweaty bodies grinding against each other on the dance floor.

The music was so loud I could feel the floor vibrating. I spotted Niall and Louis sitting at the bar with a drink in their hands.

“Lou and Niall are over there!” I said shouting over the music; Danielle looked at where I was pointing and grabbed my hand and started making our way over there with Nate following closely.

When we got up to the boys they looked relieved to see me and quickly hugged the life out of me.

“Guys seriously I’m fine” I huffed.

They pulled back and Louis said “Well we missed seeing your face okay”

I chuckled but stopped short when I saw Louis face drop before he gently pushed me aside and went up to Nate.

“What are you doing here?!” He said standing in front of Nate with his arms crossed.

I quickly squeezed myself between them and put my hands on Louis chest as I pushed him back a few steps.

“Louis leave it. I’ve forgiven him, he explained himself and everything’s okay between us.” I said

Louis opened his mouth to protest but I covered it quickly with my hand.

“Trust me please?” I pleaded.

Louis removed my hand from his mouth and sighed, “I’m not happy about this but if you’re sure…” He trailed off looking at me for confirmation.

I nodded quickly and he stared at me for a few more seconds to make sure I was serious. He finally looked back at Nate and said “If you hurt her in the slightest way I will not hesitate to punch you, no matter what she says, got it?” He asked firmly.

I’m sure I looked mortified by now but Nate didn’t seem surprised by any of it. “I wouldn’t expect anything less” He said.

Louis nodded and then muttered “I need another drink”

I giggled at his expression and looked at Niall who was quiet during the whole thing.

He was frowning slightly and had a concentrated look on his face before he spoke.  “Danielle you should take Bianca to dance.” He said not looking at either of us.

I frowned as Danielle grabbed my hand and started pulling me away but I pulled my arm out of her grip and put my hand on Niall’s shoulder turning him around.

“Niall what was that?” I demanded.

He smiled at me and said “I just want to talk to Nate, go dance with Danni okay?”

I frowned at him and looked at Nate who nodded for me to go dance.

I rolled my eyes; the boys were being ridiculous but fine if they wanted me to go I would go. I nodded at Nate and turned around and walked back to Danielle who was waiting patiently.

When we got to the dance floor I peaked at where Niall and Nate were standing but they were no longer there.

I sighed but let it go and started dancing with Danielle.

It wasn’t long before I was laughing and smiling just like I used to.

“I’m glad you forced me to come out I needed this” I said smiling widely

“No problem!” Danielle said flashing me a grin.

We danced for a while longer before Nate, Niall and Louis joined us. We were dancing for god knows how long but I just lost track of time and it was the best feeling in the world. I just moved my body to the music and focused on that. Temporarily forgetting everything that had happened in the past week.

I was happily dancing and laughing when I saw Danielle freeze. I looked at her concernedly when the same thing happened to Niall and Louis.

“Guys?” I asked.

Their gazes snapped to mine looking panicked and worried. I looked at Nate confused to see if he knew what was going on but he was looking at something behind me, his face drained of colour.

I went to turn around but Nate grabbed my shoulder, preventing me from seeing what they had all seen.

“Let’s go Bianca I’m not feeling well anymore” He said hurriedly while the others nodded and said they were quite tired as well.

I frowned at them they were fine a second ago. Nate’s hand was still on my shoulder but I shrugged it off and turned around and froze.

My eyes widened and my heart pounded as I stared in shock because there was Zayn.

Except he wasn’t alone.

This girl was practically grinding on him and he did nothing to push her away.

I could feel someone tugging on my arm but I couldn’t tear my gaze away from the horrible sight in front of me.

I don’t know what happened but instead of crumpling onto the floor and sobbing like I wanted to I started making my way over to them.

With each step my anger grew and I could feel the others following me.

I was finally in front of Zayn and he looked up and looked surprised to see me but then his face went blank.

My hands were shaking and my breathing had turned shallow.

The girl who was dancing with Zayn stared at me oblivious to the tension and held out her hand to me and said in a chirpy voice “Hi I’m Tara!”

I didn’t make a move to grab her hand and she awkwardly dropped it.

“Zayn what the hell are you doing?” I asked fiercely

“I was dancing in case you didn’t notice and I can see you’re doing the same with Nate” He spat out.

“Nate’s my friend Zayn! I forgave him and I thought you would be able to trust my judgement on this!” I said yelling at him.

“You’re the one moving on so why can’t I?!” he yelled right back.

“I’m not moving on!” I shouted, running a hand through my head, feeling so frustrated at this whole situation.

“I’m not moving on” I said quietly. “I love you” I whispered.

Zayn froze and stared at me with widened eyes. Shit he heard me I thought cringing.

Suddenly Nate spoke the 2 words I never thought he would say.

“I’m gay.”

Zayn snapped his head up to look at Nate while I whirled around to stare at Nate open mouthed.

“Nate you don’t have to-“I started to say but Nate cut me off.

“I’m gay, that night when I kissed her it’s because I was trying to change how I felt, I was drunk and messed up and I love her like a sister and tried to force something that wasn’t there. I’m gay okay? Now you better fucking fix this because I swear if you break her heart again I will fucking hurt you.” Nate said firmly.

I just stared at him open mouthed unable to think of a coherent response.

Nate winked at me and then leant in and kissed me on the forehead, “I’m going to catch a cab home. Call me if he gives you any trouble” He said nodding at Zayn and with that he left.

Danielle was looking amused by the whole situation while Niall and Louis looked surprised.

“Bianca?” Zayn asked.

I looked at him and bit my lip.

“Well I can see your moving on fine so I’m going to go” I said and spun around and started walking away quickly.

Niall caught up with me easily and said “I’m not letting you stay alone tonight”

I nodded silently and heard Zayn shout after me but ignored him. As we were getting into a cab Zayn caught up with us panting slightly.

“Can we please talk?” He begged as it started to rain.

“Tomorrow Zayn not now” I said feeling tired all of a sudden.

“I’m trying to fix this and you-“Zayn started to say but I cut him off angrily.

“Now you’re trying to fix this?! You completely ignored me when I was trying to fix this so sorry if I don’t want to talk right now after seeing another girl grind on you!” I shouted.

Zayn opened his mouth but I cut him off with a deadly glare and said “You’re only trying to fix this because Nate told you he was gay. You need to apologise to him. You should have trusted me, a relationship won’t work without trust and maybe we should go back to being friends because this isn’t working” I said wearily even though my brain was protesting at the thought of just being friends with Zayn, my heart thumped painfully because it knew Zayn could never be just a friend and it scared me.

Zayn stared at me in shock and I could see the pain in his eyes. I looked away unable to look him in the eyes anymore.

“I’m sorry” I whispered and shut the taxi door shut. Niall hopped in and told the driver his address and I watched as we drove away from Zayn who was now standing in the pouring rain. I snorted at the total cliché.

Niall put his arm around me and made soothing noises as I cried into his shoulder.

“It’s going to be okay Bee; he’ll come to his sense and fix this I promise.” Niall said softly

I nodded and shut my eyes tightly in a futile attempt to stop the tears from streaming down my face.

“Niall?” I asked hoarsely.

“Yeah?” He replied.

“I really really love him” I said, feeling a sob building up.

“I know you do, and he loves you so much Bee. Trust me” Niall said softly.

“But he broke it” I said in between sobs.

“Broke what?” Niall asked worriedly.

“My heart” I whispered.