One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles, Chapter 20

One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles

Chapter 20:

Bianca’s POV:

It had been a couple of days since the incident at Niall’s apartment and I was currently moping in my room. I could hear hushed voices outside my door and rolled my eyes. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and cringed. I looked like a right mess.

A sigh escaped my lips and I jumped when my room door suddenly burst open. Danielle came storming in and crossed her arms. My mouth hung open in surprise while she looked at me expectantly.

“We’re going out, so go shower and I’m going to help you get ready” She demanded

“But-“ I started to say before she cut me off with a glare.

Danielle could be scary when she wanted to so I obediently headed to the bathroom and showered.

When I came out wrapped in a towel Danielle had set some clothes on the bed which I robotically put on.

It wasn’t till she pushed me into a chair and started doing my hair that I realised I had no idea where we going.

“Danielle where are we going?” I asked quietly.

“We’re going out clubbing with the boys” She said

My breath caught in my throat and my eyes widened with horror. She was going to make me go clubbing while Zayn was there? I would burst into tears the second I saw him!

Confusion flittered across Danielle’s face before she realised what I was thinking. “Zayns not going to be there babe, he’s moping around at home so Liam and Harry are keeping him company while Niall and Louis come clubbing with us”

“He’s moping?” I asked confused.

Danielle sighed and muttered to herself “So damn dense.”

“What?” I said defensively feeling even more confused.

“He’s moping about you silly! He misses you!” She exclaimed.

“Yeah well he’s the one who’s ignoring me.” I muttered to myself.

When Danielle was done curling my hair and doing my makeup she turned me around so I could see myself in the mirror.

A small gasp escaped my lips as I took in my appearance. My dark brown hair was curled to perfection and cascaded down my back; my brown eyes seemed to pop with the eyeliner and mascara Danielle had put on and my lips looked pouty and pink. I almost didn’t recognise myself.

No one will think wow that girl’s been moping in her room crying for three days I thought to myself wryly.

“Do you not like what I did?” Danielle asked nervously and I realised I hadn’t said anything yet.

I spun around and threw my arms around her tightly. “Thank you thank you thank you!” I said grinning.

Danielle laughed and hugged me back tightly.

I was going to have fun tonight; I deserved a night of fun after everything.

I heard my room door open and pulled back to see Nate standing there rather awkwardly.

“Nate” I said surprised.

I saw Danielle look between us, eyebrows furrowed.

“Um, I was wondering if I could talk to you alone for a sec…” He stammered.

Danielle looked at me and raised her eyebrows. I nodded slightly and she sent me a small smile.

“I’ll be waiting downstairs” She said as she walked out of my room, subtly shutting the door behind her.

I looked at Nate expectantly but he didn’t say anything and as the silence dragged on my nerves were escalating.

“Nate I’m really nervous now what’s up?” I finally asked him.

Nate sighed and ran a hand threw his messy hair. He made his way over to my bed and sat down on the edge and patted the spot next to him.

I rolled my eyes but complied.

I bit my lip as I waited for him to say something, anything.

“Okay I don’t know where to start but first I’m sorry about getting in the way of you and Zayn, but more importantly for that night when you were in the accident. I shouldn’t have forced myself on you and I only did it because I was… conflicted about things and I handled it the wrong way and I love you like a sister, I always have but…” He trailed off.

I stared at him speechless but squeezed his hand, encouraging him to go on.

He looked at me nervously and said quietly “You know how my relationship is with my dad, it’s pretty strained and he already hates me so when I realised…. Something about myself I knew it would just anger my dad even more so I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that… I’m… well… you see…” Nate let out a frustrated grunt and pulled at his hair.

“It’s okay you know you can tell me anything” I said softly.

“I’ve just never really said it aloud but here goes nothing” he said muttering.

“I’m gay.” He quickly said.

My eyes widened and my mouth fell open. I snapped my mouth shut when I realised how I must have looked and opened my mouth but I was at a loss of words.

Nate was nervously clicking his fingers and I finally snapped out of it.

“Well I’m glad you told me and about your dad, he doesn’t know what he’s missing out on.”

Nate looked relieved. “Thanks, for not making this a big deal. I haven’t quite come to terms with it.” He said fidgeting slightly. 

I hugged him tightly and said “I’ll be with you every step of the way so it’s fine just take it as it comes”

When I pulled away Nate sent me a heart-warming smile and said “I don’t know what I’d do without you”

I smiled back at him and he said “So you’re looking quite sexy where you off too?”

I chuckled at him before responding, “Danielle’s taking me clubbing with Louis and Niall.”

“Sounds fun…” He said trailing off. He looked conflicted so I nudged him lightly and his eyes snapped up to meet mine.

“What’s on your mind?” I asked him.

“Well do you think I could come? I mean Zayns not going to be there and I could really use a distraction tonight…” He said slowly.

“Of course!” I said grinning at him! I grabbed his head and started dragging him downstairs where Danielle was talking to mum. I let go off his hand when we entered the lounge.

“Danielle is it cool if Nate comes clubbing with us?” I asked. Nate looked embarrassed for some reason, silly boy.

Danielle looked surprise but quickly nodded. “Sure you guys ready to go? Lou and Niall will meet us there” She said.

“Yeah as ready as I’ll ever be” I said.

“Alright let’s go” Danielle said grabbing her purse and keys.

“Bye mom!” I yelled as we left the house and I heard her yell “Be Safe!”

Danielle got into the driver’s seat; I got into the passenger’s side while Nate got into the back.

We drove there with the radio, all of us lost in our own thoughts.

Before I knew it we were outside the club, I shook my head trying to get myself out of the daze I was in.

Nate nudged me and I looked at him quickly, he was frowning down at me.

“What?” I asked innocently

“You were completely out of it then, does that happen a lot?” He asked concern written all over his face.

I forced on a smile and said “No don’t worry I’m fine”

He didn’t look convinced but before he could question me further Danielle returned from talking to the bouncer outside the club.

“Alright let’s go in” She said smiling.

We walked past the line of people and slipped inside. I looked around and it seemed like there were hundreds of sweaty bodies grinding against each other on the dance floor.

The music was so loud I could feel the floor vibrating. I spotted Niall and Louis sitting at the bar with a drink in their hands.

“Lou and Niall are over there!” I said shouting over the music; Danielle looked at where I was pointing and grabbed my hand and started making our way over there with Nate following closely.

When we got up to the boys they looked relieved to see me and quickly hugged the life out of me.

“Guys seriously I’m fine” I huffed.

They pulled back and Louis said “Well we missed seeing your face okay”

I chuckled but stopped short when I saw Louis face drop before he gently pushed me aside and went up to Nate.

“What are you doing here?!” He said standing in front of Nate with his arms crossed.

I quickly squeezed myself between them and put my hands on Louis chest as I pushed him back a few steps.

“Louis leave it. I’ve forgiven him, he explained himself and everything’s okay between us.” I said

Louis opened his mouth to protest but I covered it quickly with my hand.

“Trust me please?” I pleaded.

Louis removed my hand from his mouth and sighed, “I’m not happy about this but if you’re sure…” He trailed off looking at me for confirmation.

I nodded quickly and he stared at me for a few more seconds to make sure I was serious. He finally looked back at Nate and said “If you hurt her in the slightest way I will not hesitate to punch you, no matter what she says, got it?” He asked firmly.

I’m sure I looked mortified by now but Nate didn’t seem surprised by any of it. “I wouldn’t expect anything less” He said.

Louis nodded and then muttered “I need another drink”

I giggled at his expression and looked at Niall who was quiet during the whole thing.

He was frowning slightly and had a concentrated look on his face before he spoke.  “Danielle you should take Bianca to dance.” He said not looking at either of us.

I frowned as Danielle grabbed my hand and started pulling me away but I pulled my arm out of her grip and put my hand on Niall’s shoulder turning him around.

“Niall what was that?” I demanded.

He smiled at me and said “I just want to talk to Nate, go dance with Danni okay?”

I frowned at him and looked at Nate who nodded for me to go dance.

I rolled my eyes; the boys were being ridiculous but fine if they wanted me to go I would go. I nodded at Nate and turned around and walked back to Danielle who was waiting patiently.

When we got to the dance floor I peaked at where Niall and Nate were standing but they were no longer there.

I sighed but let it go and started dancing with Danielle.

It wasn’t long before I was laughing and smiling just like I used to.

“I’m glad you forced me to come out I needed this” I said smiling widely

“No problem!” Danielle said flashing me a grin.

We danced for a while longer before Nate, Niall and Louis joined us. We were dancing for god knows how long but I just lost track of time and it was the best feeling in the world. I just moved my body to the music and focused on that. Temporarily forgetting everything that had happened in the past week.

I was happily dancing and laughing when I saw Danielle freeze. I looked at her concernedly when the same thing happened to Niall and Louis.

“Guys?” I asked.

Their gazes snapped to mine looking panicked and worried. I looked at Nate confused to see if he knew what was going on but he was looking at something behind me, his face drained of colour.

I went to turn around but Nate grabbed my shoulder, preventing me from seeing what they had all seen.

“Let’s go Bianca I’m not feeling well anymore” He said hurriedly while the others nodded and said they were quite tired as well.

I frowned at them they were fine a second ago. Nate’s hand was still on my shoulder but I shrugged it off and turned around and froze.

My eyes widened and my heart pounded as I stared in shock because there was Zayn.

Except he wasn’t alone.

This girl was practically grinding on him and he did nothing to push her away.

I could feel someone tugging on my arm but I couldn’t tear my gaze away from the horrible sight in front of me.

I don’t know what happened but instead of crumpling onto the floor and sobbing like I wanted to I started making my way over to them.

With each step my anger grew and I could feel the others following me.

I was finally in front of Zayn and he looked up and looked surprised to see me but then his face went blank.

My hands were shaking and my breathing had turned shallow.

The girl who was dancing with Zayn stared at me oblivious to the tension and held out her hand to me and said in a chirpy voice “Hi I’m Tara!”

I didn’t make a move to grab her hand and she awkwardly dropped it.

“Zayn what the hell are you doing?” I asked fiercely

“I was dancing in case you didn’t notice and I can see you’re doing the same with Nate” He spat out.

“Nate’s my friend Zayn! I forgave him and I thought you would be able to trust my judgement on this!” I said yelling at him.

“You’re the one moving on so why can’t I?!” he yelled right back.

“I’m not moving on!” I shouted, running a hand through my head, feeling so frustrated at this whole situation.

“I’m not moving on” I said quietly. “I love you” I whispered.

Zayn froze and stared at me with widened eyes. Shit he heard me I thought cringing.

Suddenly Nate spoke the 2 words I never thought he would say.

“I’m gay.”

Zayn snapped his head up to look at Nate while I whirled around to stare at Nate open mouthed.

“Nate you don’t have to-“I started to say but Nate cut me off.

“I’m gay, that night when I kissed her it’s because I was trying to change how I felt, I was drunk and messed up and I love her like a sister and tried to force something that wasn’t there. I’m gay okay? Now you better fucking fix this because I swear if you break her heart again I will fucking hurt you.” Nate said firmly.

I just stared at him open mouthed unable to think of a coherent response.

Nate winked at me and then leant in and kissed me on the forehead, “I’m going to catch a cab home. Call me if he gives you any trouble” He said nodding at Zayn and with that he left.

Danielle was looking amused by the whole situation while Niall and Louis looked surprised.

“Bianca?” Zayn asked.

I looked at him and bit my lip.

“Well I can see your moving on fine so I’m going to go” I said and spun around and started walking away quickly.

Niall caught up with me easily and said “I’m not letting you stay alone tonight”

I nodded silently and heard Zayn shout after me but ignored him. As we were getting into a cab Zayn caught up with us panting slightly.

“Can we please talk?” He begged as it started to rain.

“Tomorrow Zayn not now” I said feeling tired all of a sudden.

“I’m trying to fix this and you-“Zayn started to say but I cut him off angrily.

“Now you’re trying to fix this?! You completely ignored me when I was trying to fix this so sorry if I don’t want to talk right now after seeing another girl grind on you!” I shouted.

Zayn opened his mouth but I cut him off with a deadly glare and said “You’re only trying to fix this because Nate told you he was gay. You need to apologise to him. You should have trusted me, a relationship won’t work without trust and maybe we should go back to being friends because this isn’t working” I said wearily even though my brain was protesting at the thought of just being friends with Zayn, my heart thumped painfully because it knew Zayn could never be just a friend and it scared me.

Zayn stared at me in shock and I could see the pain in his eyes. I looked away unable to look him in the eyes anymore.

“I’m sorry” I whispered and shut the taxi door shut. Niall hopped in and told the driver his address and I watched as we drove away from Zayn who was now standing in the pouring rain. I snorted at the total cliché.

Niall put his arm around me and made soothing noises as I cried into his shoulder.

“It’s going to be okay Bee; he’ll come to his sense and fix this I promise.” Niall said softly

I nodded and shut my eyes tightly in a futile attempt to stop the tears from streaming down my face.

“Niall?” I asked hoarsely.

“Yeah?” He replied.

“I really really love him” I said, feeling a sob building up.

“I know you do, and he loves you so much Bee. Trust me” Niall said softly.

“But he broke it” I said in between sobs.

“Broke what?” Niall asked worriedly.

“My heart” I whispered.

 

 

One Direction, Fanfic: Around in circles Chapter 13:

One Direction, Fanfic: Around in circles

Chapter 13:

Bianca’s POV:

I woke up to smell of food, I opened my eyes slowly and looked around. Liam and Danielle were fast asleep in each other’s arms; I controlled the urge to ‘Awww’ at how cute they looked! Harry must have moved around a lot in his sleep because his head was now where his feet were, he had done a 180 turn and Louis was drooling a little. I grabbed my phone off the floor and took a quick picture and chuckled quietly. I was so going to hold this against him. I looked at Zayn next and saw he was also still fast asleep. I look down at our intertwined hands and tried to remember when that had happened, I mean I woke up and we were holding hands. I don’t even remember how that happened.

Oh my gosh he looks so cute, I snapped a picture on my phone of him as well. I sighed at how adorable he looked. I leant in and kissed him on the cheek and slowly removed my hand from his, my hand suddenly felt cold though without his and I sat up slowly and checked the time on my phone.

It was nearly noon so I stretched and quietly got up. I could hear Niall singing ‘Somebody to Love’ by Justin Bieber quietly and I joined in him in the kitchen to help him with whatever he was cooking.

“Morning” I said yawning.

“Hey Bee, wanna help make pancakes?” He asked

“Sure!” I said brightly, I loved pancakes! One of my favorite foods for sure and Niall knew it!

Niall got out another pan so we were cooking pancakes side by side.

We ended up cooking heaps and my mouth was watering by the end of it, I couldn’t wait to dig in, me and Niall together of course already stole a few and ate them while cooking, they were just too tempting.

Suddenly everyone seemed to be waking up from the Lounge, I could hear them groaning and me and Niall chuckled and took the food over to the dining table with plates and cutlery.

I nearly jumped out of my skin when Niall yelled “BREAKFAST IS READY! COME AND GET IT!” in a loud booming voice.

Niall laughed when he saw I got a fright and I shoved him slightly and said “oh shut up.”

I heard a whole bunch of footsteps making their way to the table so Niall and I sat down next to each other and started grabbing the biggest pancakes.

“PANCAKES!” Louis screamed sitting down and grabbing some quickly.

I laughed and felt someone stand behind me. I lifted my head and saw Zayn; I smiled at him and said “Morning sleepy head”

“Morning” he said and leant down giving me a quick kiss before he took a seat next to me on the other side.

Liam, Danielle and harry sat down too and soon all you could hear was the clinking of the cutlery on the plates because everyone was too busy stuffing their faces to talk.

“This is so good!” Harry moaned.

“I helped make it!” I said

“Yeah but it’s my secret recipe!” Niall said winking.

“Well it’s delicious” Louis said with his mouth full. Well I think that’s what he said; it was hard to understand him when he kept stuffing his face with food.

By the end of it I felt sick from eating so much. I looked down at my stomach and got angry with myself. Why did I eat so much? I looked around the table and saw everyone was still eating. I pushed my chair back and went to stand up when Zayn put his hand on my knee.

“Are you done eating?” He asked.

“Yeah I’m pretty full, just gonna go to the bathroom” I replied

“Oh okay” Zayn said nodding

I got up and made my way to the bathroom. When I went in I shut the door and made sure it was locked. I put the tap on and went over to the toilet and stuck three fingers down my throat and made myself throw up. I shouldn’t have eaten so much.

When I was done heaving up my stomach I heard someone knock on the door.

“Two Minutes!” I yelled out.

I walked to the sink and rinsed out my mouth and washed my face, when I looked decent I unlocked the door and found Niall standing there.

He quickly walked in before I even had the chance to walk out; he wrinkled up his nose and said “Did you throw up?”

“What?” I asked him shocked.

“I have a sensitive nose” He explained, “And it smells like puke”

“Uh, I think I just ate a little too much and it made me sick, but don’t worry I’m fine now” I said quickly.

Niall frowned at me suspiciously and I quickly said “Well it’s all yours now” and walked out into the living room where everyone chilling.

Zayn looked up at me when I entered the room and held out his arms to me.

I smiled at him and quickly sat down in between his legs and rested my back on his chest.

He rested his chin on my shoulder and I could feel him staring at me.

At first I just ignored him but he just kept staring so I gave in and turned my head to face him, “What?” I asked

He shook his head at me and said “You’re going to think this is incredibly cheesy but you look so beautiful and I just got distracted.”

I snorted and said “Right sure. You’re one to talk babe, you wake up looking like a freaking sex god for crying out loud.”

“Sex god?” Zayn asked smirking.

I groaned and said “I take it back!”

“Nope no take backs!” he argued.

“Whatever” I muttered.

He laughed at my comeback and kissed me on the cheek and said “God you know I love you right?”

My heart started beating faster when he said that, I know I loved Zayn already, like really loved him but I wasn’t sure how he felt and whenever he said he loved me it just made me melt.

“Love you more” I said softly.

“I wish I could wake up next to you every morning” he said sighing.

“Can’t wait till the married life right” he said.

After he said that I was struggling to remain calm. Did he mean he couldn’t wait till we would get married? Would we get married someday? I thought about it and I could actually see myself walking down the aisle to meet him, I couldn’t picture anyone else.

I shook my head quickly, oh my god what am I thinking?! That would be in the far far far future.

Get a grip Bianca! I told myself.

We all stayed at Harry and Lou’s till like 3 in the afternoon just chatting. I still felt like I needed to catch up on some sleep. We had said bye to everyone and left. Zayn was driving back to his apartment, and then I would take the car home and hopefully catch up on my sleep.

When we pulled into Zayns car park, I leant closer to him and kissed him. We kissed for several minutes before we pulled apart breathing hard.

“That was a lot of fun, thanks for coming and making it special” Zayn said kissing me again.

“That was nothing, I had so much fun, and I can’t wait till the next slumber party!” I told him excitedly.

He laughed softly and said “You never fail to amaze me”

I looked at him confused but he shook his head and gave a last sweet kiss before saying goodbye.

I watched him walk away and before he entered the elevator he turned around and blew me a kiss and I blew him one back.

I chuckled as I pulled out of the car park and started driving home.

I always said if I were in a relationship I wouldn’t be one of those sickingly sweet couples but Zayn honestly just made me all giggly and girly and I couldn’t help it. I had a big smile on my face the entire way home.

When I got home, just as I entered I bumped into my parents, I looked at my dad angrily because I just had all this hate building up but I couldn’t even voice my opinion so I just stayed quiet and kept my face blank from any emotion.

Mum gave me a hug and said “Hope you had fun at the sleepover! We just got called into work, a big meeting is going to happen, we’ll be home later tonight, don’t wait up!”

She kissed me on the cheek and walked out quickly, my dad followed her but not before giving me a quick kiss on the cheek.

I shut the door and rubbed my face quickly, I knew it was immature but things with my dad were just rocky.

I walked up to my room, dragging my feet because a wave of tiredness washed over me.

I collapsed onto my bed and closed my eyes and waited for sleep to come, I couldn’t be bothered changing, I was in sweats and a t-shirt anyway, that was comfy.

 

I thought I heard the front door open and cracked my eyes open a tiny bit. It was really dark so I figured it was still late at night and my parents were probably home. I shut my eyes again and relaxed and just listened to the footsteps that were now making their way upstairs.

They paused outside my room and my door opened. I still kept my eyes shut, I was half asleep and I figured it was just mom checking on me.

I heard them come into my room and I felt like funny. I had a bad feeling deep down in the pit of my stomach and I didn’t like it.

Suddenly I felt the softest pressure on my lips and my eyes opened instantly in shock.

I jumped back and sat up quickly.

“Nate?! What the fuck?!” I yelled.

I wiped my lips on the back of my hand fiercely.

Nate stood their looking shocked, “I- I thought you were asleep.” He stammered. “I was going to kiss you on the forehead but I just wanted to know what it would feel like” He said quickly.

“What are you doing here?” I asked him angrily

“You didn’t answer my text and I couldn’t sleep so I came to see if you wanted to hang out?”  He said shrugging.

I just stared at him.

“Get out.” I said flatly.

“What?” He asked his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

“Get out!” I said raising my voice.

“You can’t just kiss me Nate! I have a boyfriend!”

He scoffed and said “When will you realize that you like me not him.”

I glared at him and clenched my fists tightly. I was trying really hard not to punch him when I realized he was drunk. I can’t believe I didn’t smell the alcohol on him earlier.

When I looked into his eyes I saw they were a little bloodshot.

“Nate did you drive here drunk?!” I demanded.

“No I walked.” He said slowly.

“Well walk yourself home because I’m pissed at you.” I said.

“No you love me” he said simply.

“Fuck off Nate okay I’m being nice here just go I’ll talk to you later.” I said looking away. I can’t believe he kissed me. I sighed when I realized I would have to tell Zayn.

“Oh and give me back the spare key?” I told him.

“Why?” He asked shocked.

“So this doesn’t happen again” I responded harshly

“No.” He said staring at me challengingly.

I got off the bed and stood in front of him.

“Give me the fucking key Nate” I hissed

“Okay.” He said

I raised my eyebrows suspiciously but held out my hand.

“Only if you give me a kiss.” He said

“You know what Nate, I’m done, and you’re drunk we can talk when you’re sober. Maybe, but now you just need to fucking get lost.”

I went to walk past him to show him the door but he grabbed me by my shoulders and pressed me against the wall.

“Nate get off!” I yelled trying to push his body away from mine.

He grabbed my hands with one hand and held them tightly by my side and whispered “Kiss me”

“No.” I said struggling against his hold, this was not Nate.

He laughed and I froze. When he moved I saw something sticking out of his jacket pocket.

“Are you high Nate?” I whispered.

“Maybe” he replied grinning widely.

I shrank back into the wall.

I had only ever seen Nate high once besides this time and it was not pretty. It had the worst effect on him.

“Nate let me go.”I demanded.

His grip on me tightened and he grabbed my face roughly with one hand and pressed his lips against mine. I thrashed in his arms and tried to move my face but his hold was too tight. He was hurting my jaw with his strength.

I started crying which made him stop. “Shit Bianca I’m so sorry, don’t cry, please don’t cry.”He said while wiping the tears of my face.

His grip had loosened and he was distracted so I took this as my chance and kneed him in the balls and shoved him away from me with all the strength I could muster.

He went stumbling to the floor and I grabbed my phone and keys from the tables next to me and ran.

I ran down the stairs and heard him shout at me, I started crying harder and ran faster to my car. I could hear him running behind me and I freaking out and pushed myself to run faster. I got in the car and started it quickly and pulled out of the driveway. I saw him trip and fall and I relaxed a little bit as I drove away from him.

I was at the traffic lights that were red and I couldn’t stop crying I couldn’t calm down. I needed Zayn. I picked up my phone with shaky hands and speed dialed Zayn and put him on speaker.

“Hello?” Zayn answered groggily.

“Zayn I’m so sorry” I said sobbing.

“Bianca? Bianca what’s wrong?! Where are you?” He asked frantically.

“I’m on my way to yours” I said crying.

“Whatever happened I promise to do my best to fix it” Zayn said soothingly.

The light turned green so I started going forward when I heard someone’s horn blaring from behind me. Before I could look in the rear view mirror I saw something from the corner of my eye and turned my head to the right.

I screamed when I saw an oncoming truck, the head lights were on bright so I had to squint. I stamped my foot on the gas but I wasn’t quick enough because the truck collided with my car and I screamed again as the car spun out of control and flipped over.

I hit my head on the window and screamed again from the pain coursing through me.

I saw the glass shatter and shut my eyes tightly as it cut into my skin.

I was stinging all over from the cuts on my body and my head was pounding. Blood was dripping from my head and blurring my vision. My whole body felt as if it was on fire. Everything was hurting and it was all too much. I couldn’t breathe properly. I’m going to die I thought. There was blood everywhere, I was covered in it and I didn’t even know where half of it was coming from because my whole body was aching.

 I blacked out from the pain and the last thing I heard were sirens in the distance and a lot of screaming.

One Direction, Fanfic: Around in circles Chapter 8:

One Direction, Fanfic: Around in circles

Chapter 8:

Bianca’s POV:

Entering Zayns apartment I felt even more nervous, just calm down this is Zayn I thought. Oh god this is Zayn! How the hell am I supposed to calm down?

“Bee?” Zayn asked waving his hand in front of my face.

“Huh?” I asked looking at him.

“You were pretty spaced out just then, what were you thinking about?” He asked curiously

“Nothing” I answered quickly, oh yeah that was so believable I thought to myself.

Zayns started chuckling and I raised my eyebrows questioningly,

“You were spacing out again” he said, “I think we need to get you to bed” he said walking into his bedroom, I followed him and watched him as he bent over to open one of his draws searching for something.

He does have a fine ass I thought.

Zayn whirled around and stared at me incredulously before bursting out into laughter.

Oh shit, “Did I say that out loud?” I asked him cringingly

“Yeah you did” he said laughing “I’m glad you think my ass is fine”

“Shut up” I grumbled. I mentally face palmed myself for being so stupid, I really do need some sleep.

He was still laughing when he chucked a pair of his boxers and a shirt.

I started changing and when I was done I turned to Zayn who was staring at me with his mouth slightly open, my turn to tease I thought wickedly

I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my body against his. I heard him gulp loudly and I tried to keep the smirk off my face. I leant in really slowly and when I was an inch away from his lips I licked my lips and heard him suck in a breath.

 “IS THAT DROOL?!” I yelled.

Zayn leapt in the air and quickly brought his hand to his mouth wiping away the invisible drool. I burst out laughing and backed away clutching my stomach because his expression was priceless. He really fell for that.

“That was not nice” He growled playfully

I couldn’t even respond because I was laughing so much I had tears in my eyes.

“That’s it.” I heard him say

Before I had time to react I was air born and Zayn threw me on the bed and quickly leant over me, his hands were on either side of my head and he didn’t put any weight on my at all because he was holding himself up so I pulled him down and quickly kissed him in hopes to distract him from whatever he planned. He started kissing me back and I felt a grin appear on my face which didn’t last very long.

His hands ran down the sides of my body and I instantly felt warm all over, he rested his hands on my hips and pulled back, staring into my eyes.

I tried to slow down my breathing but his intense gaze wasn’t helping.

“Payback’s a bitch” he said smirking widely

“Oh shit” I gasped, Zayn started tickling and I tried pushing his hands away but he grabbed both my hands and held them above my head with one of his hands while he continued to tickle me.

“Please stop” I said laughing as I tried to squirm away

“Zayn!” I said breathlessly.

“Only if you say ‘Zayn is the sexiest person ever and I can totally understand why he checks himself out’ you have to say that” Zayn said

“Okay okay but you have to stop tickling me so I can say it!” I said                         

He stopped tickling me and I sighed in relief and quickly said “Zayn is the sexiest person ever and I can totally understand why he checks himself out.”

He laughed and smiled down at me wickedly “I quite like the position we’re in” he said raising his eyebrows.

“Pervert” I said rolling my eyes

He laughed and said “You know you love it”. He got up off me and went to grab some clothes to change in; I closed my eyes and lay on my back. I didn’t want to start hyperventilating again when he removed his clothes; there was just so much a girl could handle.

I heard him switch of the lights and felt the bed dip. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to him. I turned on my side so my back was to him and he was now spooning me.

I felt him bury his face in my hair and asked him “Why do you always do that?”

“I just love the smell of it” he said simply

“Like how Niall loves the smell of Nandos” I said chuckling

He laughed quietly and replied “Just like that”

It was quiet for awhile and Zayn started playing with my hair, something that always made me sleepy and he knew it.

“Zayn stop you’re gonna make me fall asleep” I said yawning “See!” I told him.

“I just like playing with it though” he said

“That’s what she said” I blurted

He burst out laughing and I could feel his chest vibrate, he then sighed and tightened his grip around me “I’m going to miss you heaps this week”

I turned to face him and put my hand on his cheek, it was pretty dark but I could just make out his face “I’m going to miss you even more” I said pecking his lips.

“Good” He said with a smile, “Don’t forget me while I’m gone” he replied

I scoffed “Impossible” I murmured

Zayns smile grew even wider and my heart started beating a lot faster I was sure he could hear it.

He kissed my forehead and said “Go to sleep beautiful, I’ll have a big breakfast ready for us in the morning”

I smiled at that and snuggled into his arms and shut my eyes.

 I woke up in the morning and stretched out my arms and legs with a big yawn. I felt around the bed with my eyes closed and frowned when I didn’t find Zayn.

“It would help if you opened your eyes” Zayn said chuckling.

I opened my eyes slowly and saw Zayn in the doorway holding a tray of food, he made his way to the bed and I sat up and rested my back on the headboard. He put the tray on my lap then slipped in under the covers and sat right next to me.

“Chocolate chip pancakes with apple juice” he said

“You remembered?” I said incredulously  

“Of course what sort of boyfriend would I be if I didn’t” he said

I smile and quickly leant in to kiss him, it was supposed to be a peck but it lasted a bit longer than that.

Zayn drew back and breathlessly said “Better eat now before it gets cold”

I was glad I wasn’t the only one who was got really affected after kissing him.

I started eating the pancakes and let out a moan “Oh my god Zayn this is amazayn” I said winking at him but he didn’t register what I said.

“Zayn?” I asked waving a hand in front of his face.

“Don’t do that again” he said

“What?” I asked

He muttered something under his breath and let out a breath “When you moaned it started to um have an effect on me” he mumbled

Affect on him? Oh. OH!

I started giggling and Zayn shot me a glare which made me giggle even more.

“Beeeee!” He complained

“Oh Zayn” I said with a moan

I felt him stiffen next to me.

“Bianca…” he said warningly

 I started laughing and he said “I’ll take away those pancakes!” he threatened.

I quickly shut up and started stuffing the pancakes in my mouth; I finished quickly and gulped my apple juice down. Before I could get out of bed Zayn took the tray from me and said you go get changed and I’ll wash the dishes.

“No you made breakfast let me wash the dishes” I argued

“Bianca, my house my rules” he replied

I sighed, “Stubborn boy” I muttered.

He grinned cheekily and walked out. 

I changed quickly back into my clothes from the previous day, I glanced at the clock and saw it was 10am, I walked out of the room only to bump into Zayn. His arms shot out to catch me and he steadied me before saying “I’m going to change I’ll be out in a sec.” He let go off my arms and I missed the sudden contact.

Oh god I’m becoming such a sap. I shook my head and walked into the kitchen, I saw some of the dishes were drying so I got a towel and started drying them and putting them away.

When I put away the last fork I turned around and nearly jumped out of my skin. I put my heart to my chest to keep to from jumping out.

“Zayn are you trying to scare me to death?!” I demanded

He chuckled and said “Sorry I thought you heard me walk in.

“Obviously” I said. He ignored me and walked up to me and pulled me to him and kissed me.

 I stood their frozen for a second from shock then started kissing him back. I could feel the desperation in his kiss, he would be gone for a whole week which doesn’t sound long but for me and Zayn it felt long.

He was kissing me so passionately I literally was thinking about making him late for his flight and dragging him to his bedroom.

Suddenly his phone rang “HARRYS COCK IS BIGGER THEN YOURS! YES IT IS!”

I jumped in the air and Zayn cursed under his breath and reached for his phone from his pocket and said “Harry you’re so dead.”

I couldn’t hear what Harry said but Zayn replied “You’re lucky it didn’t go off in a public place you idiot! When did you even change it?!”

Zayn sighed and said “Yes I’m about leave with Bianca now”

Zayn started laughing and said “Go for it” he held out his phone to me and said “You can go sit in the car I just have to lock up and get my last bag”

“Sure” I said easily and took the phone from Zayn and put it to my ear “Harry?” I asked as I walked out of Zayns apartment to the elevator.

“Bianca! How was your night?” he asked, his voice held a double meaning and I replied “Harry get your mind out of the gutter you dirty boy!”

He laughed and said “You used protection at least though? I’m too young to be an uncle” he said

“Harry shut up.” I said my ears turning red

“Oh you didn’t deny it!” he sang

“Harry we didn’t use protection because we didn’t do anything last night” I said

“Sure sure” he replied as I walked out of the elevator, I got to the car and sat in the passenger seat and waited for Zayn, still on the phone with Harry.

“Did you and Louis get up to anything? How is my favorite gay couple?” I teased

“Oh shut up” he muttered

I laughed and sang “You’re not denying anything happened!”

“Ugh I’ll see you at the studio Bee”

“Sure Sure” I said mockingly trying to hold back my laughter

I heard him sigh before he said “You’re so gonna get it when I see you”

“Bye Hazza!” I said cheerfully

The boot opened and Zayn put his last bag in before he came up to the driving seat. He started the car and made his way to the studio.

I turned to put the radio on and ‘Take me down’ came on, me and Zayn grinned at each other, this was our shower song. We started singing loudly and before I knew it the song came to an end.

This time ‘Let me love you’ came on, I turned to Zayn and said “Okay this is getting weird” he chuckled and started singing while I just rested my head back and listened to him sing.

I always got goose bumps after he sang and I felt all tingly, I loved Zayn singing, he sounded so beautiful.

We soon reached the studio and saw all the boys and Danielle were already there.

We got out of the car and Louis screamed “Finally!”

The others laughed and I nudged Louis playfully, “Drama queen” I sang

“You know it sister” he said

I burst out laughing and turned to Harry and winked at him.

He frowned at me and mouthed “No” I started giggling when Zayn wrapped his arms around my waist. I leaned back into him and saw Danielle eyeing us curiously with a knowing smile on her face.

When the guy’s bodyguards made sure all the bags were in the van we all got in and the drive to the airport started.

Everyone was talking and I just sort of sat back and watched amusedly.

I felt Zayns eyes on me and I gave his hand a quick squeeze before I turned to Danielle and started talking to her.

When the driver got sick of our loud laughter he put on the radio but then we all started singing very loudly, it was great. We were soon at the airport because the driver drove really quickly.

Everything was moving really fast and before I knew it we were at the departure gate. Liam and Danielle were hugging and he gave her a last kiss, I hugged all the boys in turn and last I got to Zayn.

Danielle suddenly got all the boys attention and turned back to give me a wink. I smiled back widely and turned to Zayn who rested his forehead against mine.

“Well looks like Danielle figured that out fast” he said chuckling.

I chuckled quietly but soon it was quiet again. I looked into Zayns eyes and quickly leant in and kissed him. Zayn threw his arms around me and kissed me back, his lips moving hurriedly against mine. When he pulled away he buried his face into my hair and I pressed my face into his neck and breathed in.

I heard Danielle yelling at Louis and chuckled pulling away. Soon the boys were walking through the gate waving widely. I waved back smiling. Zayn was the last to walk though and he blew me a kiss which made my heart beat faster. I blew him one back and saw him grin widely before he walked out of sight.

I sighed and turned to Danielle who gave me hug and said “Don’t worry, it gets easier” she said

“I hope so” I replied.

My phone buzzed meaning I had a new message; I read it and couldn’t stop the smile appearing on my face. It was from Zayn and it said “I already miss your beautiful face, just be ready for date number 2 when I get back. Love you J xx”

I quickly replied “Miss your sexy face already ;) I can’t wait! Love you too Zayn J xx”

I linked arms with Danielle feeling much better and said “You’re right, time will fly and they’ll be back soon”

She smiled at me encouragingly “You bet” she said

We walked out of the airport and I glanced back before making my way to the van.

“Just one week” I reminded myself.