One Direction Fanfic: Around in Circles
It had been a couple of days since the incident at Niall’s apartment and I was currently moping in my room. I could hear hushed voices outside my door and rolled my eyes. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and cringed. I looked like a right mess.
A sigh escaped my lips and I jumped when my room door suddenly burst open. Danielle came storming in and crossed her arms. My mouth hung open in surprise while she looked at me expectantly.
“We’re going out, so go shower and I’m going to help you get ready” She demanded
“But-“ I started to say before she cut me off with a glare.
Danielle could be scary when she wanted to so I obediently headed to the bathroom and showered.
When I came out wrapped in a towel Danielle had set some clothes on the bed which I robotically put on.
It wasn’t till she pushed me into a chair and started doing my hair that I realised I had no idea where we going.
“Danielle where are we going?” I asked quietly.
“We’re going out clubbing with the boys” She said
My breath caught in my throat and my eyes widened with horror. She was going to make me go clubbing while Zayn was there? I would burst into tears the second I saw him!
Confusion flittered across Danielle’s face before she realised what I was thinking. “Zayns not going to be there babe, he’s moping around at home so Liam and Harry are keeping him company while Niall and Louis come clubbing with us”
“He’s moping?” I asked confused.
Danielle sighed and muttered to herself “So damn dense.”
“What?” I said defensively feeling even more confused.
“He’s moping about you silly! He misses you!” She exclaimed.
“Yeah well he’s the one who’s ignoring me.” I muttered to myself.
When Danielle was done curling my hair and doing my makeup she turned me around so I could see myself in the mirror.
A small gasp escaped my lips as I took in my appearance. My dark brown hair was curled to perfection and cascaded down my back; my brown eyes seemed to pop with the eyeliner and mascara Danielle had put on and my lips looked pouty and pink. I almost didn’t recognise myself.
No one will think wow that girl’s been moping in her room crying for three days I thought to myself wryly.
“Do you not like what I did?” Danielle asked nervously and I realised I hadn’t said anything yet.
I spun around and threw my arms around her tightly. “Thank you thank you thank you!” I said grinning.
Danielle laughed and hugged me back tightly.
I was going to have fun tonight; I deserved a night of fun after everything.
I heard my room door open and pulled back to see Nate standing there rather awkwardly.
“Nate” I said surprised.
I saw Danielle look between us, eyebrows furrowed.
“Um, I was wondering if I could talk to you alone for a sec…” He stammered.
Danielle looked at me and raised her eyebrows. I nodded slightly and she sent me a small smile.
“I’ll be waiting downstairs” She said as she walked out of my room, subtly shutting the door behind her.
I looked at Nate expectantly but he didn’t say anything and as the silence dragged on my nerves were escalating.
“Nate I’m really nervous now what’s up?” I finally asked him.
Nate sighed and ran a hand threw his messy hair. He made his way over to my bed and sat down on the edge and patted the spot next to him.
I rolled my eyes but complied.
I bit my lip as I waited for him to say something, anything.
“Okay I don’t know where to start but first I’m sorry about getting in the way of you and Zayn, but more importantly for that night when you were in the accident. I shouldn’t have forced myself on you and I only did it because I was… conflicted about things and I handled it the wrong way and I love you like a sister, I always have but…” He trailed off.
I stared at him speechless but squeezed his hand, encouraging him to go on.
He looked at me nervously and said quietly “You know how my relationship is with my dad, it’s pretty strained and he already hates me so when I realised…. Something about myself I knew it would just anger my dad even more so I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that… I’m… well… you see…” Nate let out a frustrated grunt and pulled at his hair.
“It’s okay you know you can tell me anything” I said softly.
“I’ve just never really said it aloud but here goes nothing” he said muttering.
“I’m gay.” He quickly said.
My eyes widened and my mouth fell open. I snapped my mouth shut when I realised how I must have looked and opened my mouth but I was at a loss of words.
Nate was nervously clicking his fingers and I finally snapped out of it.
“Well I’m glad you told me and about your dad, he doesn’t know what he’s missing out on.”
Nate looked relieved. “Thanks, for not making this a big deal. I haven’t quite come to terms with it.” He said fidgeting slightly.
I hugged him tightly and said “I’ll be with you every step of the way so it’s fine just take it as it comes”
When I pulled away Nate sent me a heart-warming smile and said “I don’t know what I’d do without you”
I smiled back at him and he said “So you’re looking quite sexy where you off too?”
I chuckled at him before responding, “Danielle’s taking me clubbing with Louis and Niall.”
“Sounds fun…” He said trailing off. He looked conflicted so I nudged him lightly and his eyes snapped up to meet mine.
“What’s on your mind?” I asked him.
“Well do you think I could come? I mean Zayns not going to be there and I could really use a distraction tonight…” He said slowly.
“Of course!” I said grinning at him! I grabbed his head and started dragging him downstairs where Danielle was talking to mum. I let go off his hand when we entered the lounge.
“Danielle is it cool if Nate comes clubbing with us?” I asked. Nate looked embarrassed for some reason, silly boy.
Danielle looked surprise but quickly nodded. “Sure you guys ready to go? Lou and Niall will meet us there” She said.
“Yeah as ready as I’ll ever be” I said.
“Alright let’s go” Danielle said grabbing her purse and keys.
“Bye mom!” I yelled as we left the house and I heard her yell “Be Safe!”
Danielle got into the driver’s seat; I got into the passenger’s side while Nate got into the back.
We drove there with the radio, all of us lost in our own thoughts.
Before I knew it we were outside the club, I shook my head trying to get myself out of the daze I was in.
Nate nudged me and I looked at him quickly, he was frowning down at me.
“What?” I asked innocently
“You were completely out of it then, does that happen a lot?” He asked concern written all over his face.
I forced on a smile and said “No don’t worry I’m fine”
He didn’t look convinced but before he could question me further Danielle returned from talking to the bouncer outside the club.
“Alright let’s go in” She said smiling.
We walked past the line of people and slipped inside. I looked around and it seemed like there were hundreds of sweaty bodies grinding against each other on the dance floor.
The music was so loud I could feel the floor vibrating. I spotted Niall and Louis sitting at the bar with a drink in their hands.
“Lou and Niall are over there!” I said shouting over the music; Danielle looked at where I was pointing and grabbed my hand and started making our way over there with Nate following closely.
When we got up to the boys they looked relieved to see me and quickly hugged the life out of me.
“Guys seriously I’m fine” I huffed.
They pulled back and Louis said “Well we missed seeing your face okay”
I chuckled but stopped short when I saw Louis face drop before he gently pushed me aside and went up to Nate.
“What are you doing here?!” He said standing in front of Nate with his arms crossed.
I quickly squeezed myself between them and put my hands on Louis chest as I pushed him back a few steps.
“Louis leave it. I’ve forgiven him, he explained himself and everything’s okay between us.” I said
Louis opened his mouth to protest but I covered it quickly with my hand.
“Trust me please?” I pleaded.
Louis removed my hand from his mouth and sighed, “I’m not happy about this but if you’re sure…” He trailed off looking at me for confirmation.
I nodded quickly and he stared at me for a few more seconds to make sure I was serious. He finally looked back at Nate and said “If you hurt her in the slightest way I will not hesitate to punch you, no matter what she says, got it?” He asked firmly.
I’m sure I looked mortified by now but Nate didn’t seem surprised by any of it. “I wouldn’t expect anything less” He said.
Louis nodded and then muttered “I need another drink”
I giggled at his expression and looked at Niall who was quiet during the whole thing.
He was frowning slightly and had a concentrated look on his face before he spoke. “Danielle you should take Bianca to dance.” He said not looking at either of us.
I frowned as Danielle grabbed my hand and started pulling me away but I pulled my arm out of her grip and put my hand on Niall’s shoulder turning him around.
“Niall what was that?” I demanded.
He smiled at me and said “I just want to talk to Nate, go dance with Danni okay?”
I frowned at him and looked at Nate who nodded for me to go dance.
I rolled my eyes; the boys were being ridiculous but fine if they wanted me to go I would go. I nodded at Nate and turned around and walked back to Danielle who was waiting patiently.
When we got to the dance floor I peaked at where Niall and Nate were standing but they were no longer there.
I sighed but let it go and started dancing with Danielle.
It wasn’t long before I was laughing and smiling just like I used to.
“I’m glad you forced me to come out I needed this” I said smiling widely
“No problem!” Danielle said flashing me a grin.
We danced for a while longer before Nate, Niall and Louis joined us. We were dancing for god knows how long but I just lost track of time and it was the best feeling in the world. I just moved my body to the music and focused on that. Temporarily forgetting everything that had happened in the past week.
I was happily dancing and laughing when I saw Danielle freeze. I looked at her concernedly when the same thing happened to Niall and Louis.
“Guys?” I asked.
Their gazes snapped to mine looking panicked and worried. I looked at Nate confused to see if he knew what was going on but he was looking at something behind me, his face drained of colour.
I went to turn around but Nate grabbed my shoulder, preventing me from seeing what they had all seen.
“Let’s go Bianca I’m not feeling well anymore” He said hurriedly while the others nodded and said they were quite tired as well.
I frowned at them they were fine a second ago. Nate’s hand was still on my shoulder but I shrugged it off and turned around and froze.
My eyes widened and my heart pounded as I stared in shock because there was Zayn.
Except he wasn’t alone.
This girl was practically grinding on him and he did nothing to push her away.
I could feel someone tugging on my arm but I couldn’t tear my gaze away from the horrible sight in front of me.
I don’t know what happened but instead of crumpling onto the floor and sobbing like I wanted to I started making my way over to them.
With each step my anger grew and I could feel the others following me.
I was finally in front of Zayn and he looked up and looked surprised to see me but then his face went blank.
My hands were shaking and my breathing had turned shallow.
The girl who was dancing with Zayn stared at me oblivious to the tension and held out her hand to me and said in a chirpy voice “Hi I’m Tara!”
I didn’t make a move to grab her hand and she awkwardly dropped it.
“Zayn what the hell are you doing?” I asked fiercely
“I was dancing in case you didn’t notice and I can see you’re doing the same with Nate” He spat out.
“Nate’s my friend Zayn! I forgave him and I thought you would be able to trust my judgement on this!” I said yelling at him.
“You’re the one moving on so why can’t I?!” he yelled right back.
“I’m not moving on!” I shouted, running a hand through my head, feeling so frustrated at this whole situation.
“I’m not moving on” I said quietly. “I love you” I whispered.
Zayn froze and stared at me with widened eyes. Shit he heard me I thought cringing.
Suddenly Nate spoke the 2 words I never thought he would say.
Zayn snapped his head up to look at Nate while I whirled around to stare at Nate open mouthed.
“Nate you don’t have to-“I started to say but Nate cut me off.
“I’m gay, that night when I kissed her it’s because I was trying to change how I felt, I was drunk and messed up and I love her like a sister and tried to force something that wasn’t there. I’m gay okay? Now you better fucking fix this because I swear if you break her heart again I will fucking hurt you.” Nate said firmly.
I just stared at him open mouthed unable to think of a coherent response.
Nate winked at me and then leant in and kissed me on the forehead, “I’m going to catch a cab home. Call me if he gives you any trouble” He said nodding at Zayn and with that he left.
Danielle was looking amused by the whole situation while Niall and Louis looked surprised.
“Bianca?” Zayn asked.
I looked at him and bit my lip.
“Well I can see your moving on fine so I’m going to go” I said and spun around and started walking away quickly.
Niall caught up with me easily and said “I’m not letting you stay alone tonight”
I nodded silently and heard Zayn shout after me but ignored him. As we were getting into a cab Zayn caught up with us panting slightly.
“Can we please talk?” He begged as it started to rain.
“Tomorrow Zayn not now” I said feeling tired all of a sudden.
“I’m trying to fix this and you-“Zayn started to say but I cut him off angrily.
“Now you’re trying to fix this?! You completely ignored me when I was trying to fix this so sorry if I don’t want to talk right now after seeing another girl grind on you!” I shouted.
Zayn opened his mouth but I cut him off with a deadly glare and said “You’re only trying to fix this because Nate told you he was gay. You need to apologise to him. You should have trusted me, a relationship won’t work without trust and maybe we should go back to being friends because this isn’t working” I said wearily even though my brain was protesting at the thought of just being friends with Zayn, my heart thumped painfully because it knew Zayn could never be just a friend and it scared me.
Zayn stared at me in shock and I could see the pain in his eyes. I looked away unable to look him in the eyes anymore.
“I’m sorry” I whispered and shut the taxi door shut. Niall hopped in and told the driver his address and I watched as we drove away from Zayn who was now standing in the pouring rain. I snorted at the total cliché.
Niall put his arm around me and made soothing noises as I cried into his shoulder.
“It’s going to be okay Bee; he’ll come to his sense and fix this I promise.” Niall said softly
I nodded and shut my eyes tightly in a futile attempt to stop the tears from streaming down my face.
“Niall?” I asked hoarsely.
“Yeah?” He replied.
“I really really love him” I said, feeling a sob building up.
“I know you do, and he loves you so much Bee. Trust me” Niall said softly.
“But he broke it” I said in between sobs.
“Broke what?” Niall asked worriedly.
“My heart” I whispered.